In my ‘real life’ where I am not Signy Kuiper things have been in upheaval. I think I mentioned in my last blog that on top of personal pain (the dogs) my day job is in upheaval. Recent rumblings have me thinking that piece of my life will be in limbo until around the end of August. Of course those rumblings change frequently so we shall see what happens.
The impact of a lot of down time at work means I have a lot of time to psychoanalyze myself. Why am I not spending it writing? Oh I am when I can but it is difficult for me to settle into writing when surrounded by a lot of negative emotions. Trust me, there are lots of them in the office right now. Instead I get inside my own head. I have my hand written journal. I have a document on my computer to log thoughts when I feel like typing (it also looks more like I’m actually working on something that way). I also go find research items online to read… copying them into a document so if someone is checking I am not online all day at work. Officially at least. J
Back to the psychoanalysis. (Nope, I’m not easily distracted at all…) In the past two weeks there have been a lot of self revelations. The most recent is related to the distraction of my brain. In my life there have been three things that calm me down. Well, four but two of them are related in my opinion. Meditation, reading/writing, and exercise. I spent several years in martial arts classes so perhaps the first and last items are related too. Either way, all of them create the same reaction in my brain. The noise goes away. I do my best work when the noise goes away.
To the purpose of this site, writing is meditation for me. Focused and active meditation. That’s why I do so much of it handwritten… I can feel the energy flow through me to the pen to the paper. But I am typing this up at work right now. Can’t the energy flow through me to the keyboard as well? Surrounded by electronics all day I don’t notice it as well but the answer is yes. This is all information I need to keep reminding myself of to get myself back into my ‘me’ space.
That’s all the self revelations for now. Perhaps I will expound on my personal chaos theory next time? Meanwhile, does anyone else have some thoughts to share?
SK
Psst… firewalls at the office won’t let me in to post this right away. Once you see it, I will have had to send it home and post there. I shall attempt to not edit no matter how much the jumping thought patterns are annoying me. *grin*
On posting... I managed not to edit. You get the raw 'Signy at the day job'.
The impact of a lot of down time at work means I have a lot of time to psychoanalyze myself. Why am I not spending it writing? Oh I am when I can but it is difficult for me to settle into writing when surrounded by a lot of negative emotions. Trust me, there are lots of them in the office right now. Instead I get inside my own head. I have my hand written journal. I have a document on my computer to log thoughts when I feel like typing (it also looks more like I’m actually working on something that way). I also go find research items online to read… copying them into a document so if someone is checking I am not online all day at work. Officially at least. J
Back to the psychoanalysis. (Nope, I’m not easily distracted at all…) In the past two weeks there have been a lot of self revelations. The most recent is related to the distraction of my brain. In my life there have been three things that calm me down. Well, four but two of them are related in my opinion. Meditation, reading/writing, and exercise. I spent several years in martial arts classes so perhaps the first and last items are related too. Either way, all of them create the same reaction in my brain. The noise goes away. I do my best work when the noise goes away.
To the purpose of this site, writing is meditation for me. Focused and active meditation. That’s why I do so much of it handwritten… I can feel the energy flow through me to the pen to the paper. But I am typing this up at work right now. Can’t the energy flow through me to the keyboard as well? Surrounded by electronics all day I don’t notice it as well but the answer is yes. This is all information I need to keep reminding myself of to get myself back into my ‘me’ space.
That’s all the self revelations for now. Perhaps I will expound on my personal chaos theory next time? Meanwhile, does anyone else have some thoughts to share?
SK
Psst… firewalls at the office won’t let me in to post this right away. Once you see it, I will have had to send it home and post there. I shall attempt to not edit no matter how much the jumping thought patterns are annoying me. *grin*
On posting... I managed not to edit. You get the raw 'Signy at the day job'.
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